Hello, fresh slate.
I'm still the same but I am entirely different. I am wed to an amazing man who was, of course, beyond amazing before he was my husband- but now there is a new level to our love. A bold new gleam to our togethereness. I am tremendously taken aback by this whole shift but at the same time-I feel like I haven't quite given enough voice to my feelings on it. Writing hasn't been at the top of my list of priorities recently. I have not been so diligent in looking at the words in my heart.
Here's a bit on how I do feel!
This road is a mystery. A mystery with soft borders. I feel completely secure in the integrity of my relationship, the dependability of my partner, the depth and richness of the love that we have grown from a seedling to this whole forest. What I'm not sure about is how I will change, what parts of myself will become foreign to me, and what new parts of myself have yet to develop and become second nature to me. I know I am already a Wife, but that's a new part of "me", and so I'm still learning just what that means. Since I don't prescribe to the traditional steroptypes of what a woman's ( or a man's) "role" is supposed to be within a Marriage, I am figuring out what my role is as one half of a partnership. As an equal to my beloved. I know that in the past I have had my shortcomings in this area. Whether it was with doing less housework than Gabriel or making less money than him or whatever else, I feel like I've got some real work to do on myself. Not to be a "good wife", but to become a better partner. I want to meet him wholly in love and domestic partnership.
Also, I want to make sure that we are finding ways to have lots of fun together, in addition to all the hubbub of housekeeping and life planning and whatnot. SO! We're going on our honeymoon to Portland, OR in less than two weeks and we couldn't be more excited. Of course, since we do not have barrels and barrels of money with which to throw around frivalously, we will be on a bit of a budget-but we will make the most of it. Planning to visit with his family in Seattle for a bit and see a few concerts and spend some time in Portland with my brother and spend a BUNCH of time exploring and adventuring the Northwest (and Powell's books) by ourselves. It's going to be excellent.
I believe I will leave it at that. I've had a lot of Iced Coffee, and I'm tired of sitting in this flat metal chair. It is my goal to write more often. To track my feelings and thoughts better. To watch myself grow. Oh what a journey! Cheers!
All if Full of Love!
-Skye